There was a period in my life when I was very sad, angry, and perhaps a little depressed. I felt betrayed by a loved one. After many morose days, I got up and asked myself if this was really how I wanted to live, basing my happiness on others and external things.
So began my spiritual journey, in some anger and affront, that I would not allow anyone to influence my life and mood ever again. 🙂 This was nearly 10 years back. Since then, there have been many transitions. Much has been shed. Much has been received. In many ways, I feel like a new person, so different from who I used to be.
As I tread this path of exploration, more doors kept opening, always at the right time. It felt strange, sometimes eerie, but so welcomed too.
In the last 2 years, this journey has accelerated as my capacity to say Yes to Life has grown. My life has changed, continues to change, and will keep changing, I am sure. And I am so grateful for all the friends, teachers, and ancestors I have met physically and “heartfully” and been touched and nourished by.
I still don’t know if I will ever reach a place where I feel, “Ok, this is it.” But I am happy where I am today. And that is enough.
Have you ever felt that you are no longer the person you were? How did that come about and where did it lead?